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9 thoughts on “Surviving Regret

  1. Leo (Queen of the Rants and Spoilers) Leo (Queen of the Rants and Spoilers) says:

    DNF 10%The hero is a cheater and the heroine's sister is a disgusting bitch who tried to sleep with her sister's boyfriend The heroine is a doormat who forgave the hero I don't give a crap if the 5 friends are coping with loss or the piece of shit hero feels guilty and wants to forget and the best fucking way to forget is to tried to fuck your girlfriend's sister If they weren't interrupted by the friend they would've slept together


  2. ❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books ❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books says:

    ༺Complimentary Copy༺ Provided by the authorMegan Smith exchange for an honest reviewThank you TITLE Surviving Regret AUTHOR Megan Smith GENRE CONTEMPORARY ROMANCE CHAPTERS RELEASE DATE August 25th 2016MY RATING 5 STARS SURVIVING REGRET This is spoken in 'Dual Perspectives' Macy and Landon This kicks starts us off in the year 2010 December told in Macy's words This story mainly focuses on 'Bad Boy' Landon Hayes an all star wide receiver and his long term girlfriend Macy ThomasHigh School Sweethearts these two were like Barbie and Ken during their High School years popular good looking life at their feet ready to be lived With a tight group of friends and Macy's twin sister Madison they were all excited to be going to the same College Madison Cash datingLandon Macy datingAlexa and Steven dating After riding an adrenaline high through winning their football game then off to celebrate the end of school by travelling to Steven's parents house in Cannon Beach Madison and Landon start toking up getting high off their faces and goofing around in the back of the car one bad decision and like a domino effect it all comes crumbling down around their ears That one night destroyed our lives forever and now we’re forever dark Things from this point forward are never the same for any of themAll their lives have been irrevocably altered and utterly ruined consecutively Madison and Landon are spiralling out of control friendships are severed drugs sex alcohol become their numbing device The only way I could survive day to day was to smoketo drink the sounds of that night awayIs Macy going to be strong enough to pull them through this dark tunnel they are all spiralling down? My shining star you're always there shining the brightest out of all the millions of stars in the skyEven when the clouds roll in threatening to dull your lightyou're still the brightest of them all You're always letting me know thatyou are there no matter how dark it gets LANDONI am so glad I took a chance on this book and this author as I've not read anything by her previously and it definitely won't be my last once they were all headed off to College it started picking up for me and hitting me right in the feels the angst the heartbreak the emotional pull on my heartstrings was astronomical The layout reads like a diary format month to month year by year which is unusual but I found I enjoyed it as it seemed to flow well for the story A few times throughout I got leaky eye syndrome this author just pulled out those feels that are normally buried deep heartbreakingly raw Loved it


  3. Kim Kim says:

    I do not like to leave a bad rating without saying why so here goes I am a firm believer in the old saying Fool me once shame on you Fool me twice shame on me Apparently the characters in this book have never heard of that and heard that kicking a dog when it's down over and over and over again is a great thing to do Why do authors think readers enjoy weak doormat heroines? Why??????In all fairness this is a very young adult book and I only read it because I was intrigued about what the big regret was My regret is even finishing it Not for me and I would not suggest letting any impressionable young women read it either


  4. Tracy *To the point Reviews* Tracy *To the point Reviews* says:

    OKDon't know what to say about this book really So I'll blurt out the obvious Heroine was a doormate And despite the fucked up situation their group of friends went through the hero was a complete doucheYou see had we gotten to know him better Had he been likeable before the accident Had we perhaps seen some redeeming ualities in him then maybe I would have accepted that the heroine took him back But since none of the above took place I could not EVER forgive a guy who was about to screw my twin sister Then who goes on to mess about with other woman for three yearsThere just wasn't enough grovelling and enough reason for him to have treated her so damn bad


  5. Cc Cc says:

    220 re readA friend of mine asked me to re read this bc she said it was different from her memory so I did And it's different than I remembered too I think the author worked a little of it over bc I got where she was going this time So a solid 3 stars I'm not into NA so even though it has one of my favorite tropes it's still not something I would read again for pleasure Original reviewI think I understand where the author was trying to go with this one but it just didn't work IMO Just made the heroine look weak


  6. EliseSReads EliseSReads says:

    Not a review of the book just a reminder to myself that this book has a cheating hero Do not read this


  7. Veronica WordsAreMyDrinkOfChoice Veronica WordsAreMyDrinkOfChoice says:

    I am not a fan of authors who basically justify abuse due to tragedy or of heroine’s who let men treat them horrifically have no love life of their own and just wait patiently for the asshole to come back to them This was just plain atrocious I am not a fan of books that use the good old blanket excuse of grief that basically enables characters to act like assholes with minimal repercussions The ‘hero’ here is a waste Of space who cheated on the heroine with her own sister Got caught before full sex but would have carried on otherwise I also am not a fan of double standards I think it is unfair of Macy to forgive Landon but not Madison Maybe the accident where Madison and Landon got caught could have been forgiven if they actually cared and learnt their lesson But they didn’t this was proven by a conversation where Landon asked Madison how far she would ah e let him go as if it was a funny and trivial event Then followed by the fact they made out again to see if their were any ‘feelings’ there? Seriously? How selfish are these two? They broke Macy’s heart by cheating they claim to love her but go there again? If they do have feelings what then? They would have had a fling? Or started dating and left Cash and Macy to pick up the pieces? They never redeemed themselves but then Cash and Macy are fools for letting themselves be treated like this However they still deserved better I was hoping they would realise they wanted each other and ride off into the sunset This beautiful scene where Madison and Landon hook up‘me in that broken down house Make me lie on the floor Make me cold Make me anything but alive to feel the painWhen I blinked it was Macy with me and then it just as uickly faded back to Madison I could have stopped right then and nothing would have changed It was just a kiss But what did I want? What did she want?Madison gave me what I was looking for the peace and uiet She’d let me lie on that floor hell she’d be lying right next to me She didn’t ask for anything in return Just let me take what I wanted in the moment to numb meEverything seemed different It wasn’t the normal sweet tasting kiss The high and alcohol was really messing with me I wondered if Madison felt it too She had to of My tongue moved against hers I grunted pushed her small delicate body against the wallShe groaned and pushed down against my leg harder I gripped her ass in my hands and raised her up so her legs were spread Pressing forward my erection dug into her The newness the anticipation all of it sent a jolt through my body a shiver I felt run down my spine One I hadn’t felt in a while We both gasped her hands flew to my chest tugging at my tie and white dress shirt I helped her out my lips never breaking from hers“I have a condom ” I whispered gasping for breathPlease don’t tell me to stopDon’tShe didn’t say a word her body started to shake My hands fumbled to find the condom in my pocket but there wasn’t much hesitation on my part She wasn’t stopping me eitherSome rationality hit me thenFuck Stop Landon Don’t Think of Macy Think of CashMy body wouldn’t listen though I wanted this A way to cope A way to forget for a second I wanted to fuck her I wanted to feel something besides the everyday feeling and I was sure this was the answer’Macy forgives Landon but not Madison‘Madison’s eyes flickered to Cash’s before she looked back to Macy “I know and I’m sorry I know that I hurt you and I hate myself Just tell me what I need to do How can I fix this?”Macy stared at her sister one of her best friends before she said “You can’t You can’t fix anything you’ve done”I slid down the wall I was leaning against brought my knees up to my chest and dropped my head Everything around me fell apart I shut down it was the only wayI’ve lost all controlI couldn’t deal any longerI ripped those gutters off that perfect house I tore the door off the hinges broke the windows and set the grass on fire I ripped every pedal off that beautiful rose leaving it broken and ugly just like the houseShe was right We can’t fix anything we’ve done Macy forgave me after that night as if it never happened In reality she forgave me before it even happened That’s just Macy though She wasn’t ready to lose the only piece of us we had left I should have ended things right then and there between us but I couldn’t I’m a selfish asshole Deep down inside I need that girl than I need my last breath’“Did you sleep with Madison?” Macy asked as we sat on her bed the next day after the disaster that prom was“No I didn’t have sex with Madison Alexa walked in before that happened” I answered honestly“Would you have if Alexa didn’t walk in?” She said through a cryI don’t want to hurt her any than I already had but I can’t lie to her either Instead of answering her I just nodded my headMacy gasped before a strangled cry escaped her “Why Landon? Why are you running to Madison instead of me? Why?” she criedI leaned forward and rested my elbows on my knees “You’ll never understand Macy”This beautiful discussion about what happenedMadison hands me the joint back that we are smoking I inhale and ask Madison something I’ve always wanted to know “Would you have let me?”“Let you fuck me?”“Jesus” I laugh Madison is always so blunt about things I love that she keeps it real and doesn’t try to add the fluff all the time “You’re so fucking crass”“So”Madison shrugs clearly avoiding my uestion By the way she’s staring at her hands she doesn’t want to answer it or she’s thinking about something else entirely“Answer it”“Answer what?”I roll my eyes “Stop avoiding the uestion” I need the answer I stone my expression so she knows I’m serious “Would you have let me?”Madison thinks for a second and I’m curious what she’s going to say next It could be anything knowing her “I probably would have let you stick it in” I shake my head she’s fucking kidding around “But then I would have stopped you”“Oh man” my head falls back against the wall with a thud as I laugh “that would have totally sucked for me”I wonder what would happen if I did have sex with Madison We’ve had so many opportunities that had we really wanted to we could haveI’m not gonna lie I have thought about it She’s so different than Macy that I wonderYeah they seem real remorseful and we are meant to believe he loves MacyBut don’t worry because he is actually dedicated to Macy really‘I would have done just that too I would have taken anything she would have given me that night It’s what I did back then Madison is one of the very few people I trust completely She understands me on an emotional level that I don’t let others see She knows me almost as much as Macy does The only difference is that Macy gets the physical side People may see me around campus and at parties with other girls but they don’t know what happens between them and me Only I know Yeah I’ve kissed other girls I’ve felt them up I’ve stuck my hands down some of their panties but that’s all that has happened The second I get close to going further Macy flashes into my mind and it’s like a bucket of cold water has been thrown on me And whether I want to admit it or not Macy has my heart wrapped around every possible side of her so much so that no one will ever be able to separate us’There is ‘I let that sink in for a few moments She doesn’t put her emotions into it She doesn’t feel it She doesn’t let it She’s just having a good time Is that how Landon thinks? I know he’s messing around with Madison even if he says that he’s not I know they’re still friends and they hang out a lot I’ve even seen him countless times over the years flirting with other girls at parties while we were “taking a break” I’ve watched him tease girls when he doesn’t know I’m in the same room as him Hell I’ve seen him kiss a girl or two right in front of meDoes he leave his feelings out of it like Heather does? Does he numb himself with them? I know he doesn’t care about them He sees right through them I see it in his eyes The only time he’s not looking through someone is when he’s with Madison and me My stomach turns My sister It makes me sick to think that he can find comfort in her He finds comfort in me too and he tells me it’s only ever me he feels but why can’t I be enough? Why can’t he just see me?FuckWhy am I still with him? Why can’t I be strong enough to walk away? Hell why can’t I turn my feelings off and just live my life the way he is?’‘Landon has some girl pushed up against the wall His hands are on her thighs under her skirtLandon must feel my gaze burning into the back of his head because he turns and his eyes land on me I let the anger take over I replace it with the heartache he is causing He’s cut me deep so deep once again’Then After she runs off in pain‘He tries to look innocent “I wasn’t doing anything”I fold my arms across my chest and laugh dryly “Yeah it didn’t look like you were doing anything Did you feel how wet she was? How wet you made her from just giving her the time of day?”I’m livid He’s a fucking idiot if he thinks he can tell me he wasn’t doing anything“Yeah she was wet So what? Does it hurt you to know I made her wet?”I am sorry he may be grieving and thinks he cannot be with Macy because he doesn’t deserve happiness But what he is doing is hurting and punishing Macy too if he really loved her he wouldn’t be with other girls and he sure as hell would not let her see itThis is just laughable‘I push Landon’s arm “You can’t do this after you just had your fucking hand up that bitch’s skirt Landon” I see my words burning him as they sink in I’ve never told him no when it came to anything sexual before “If you want some go back to that piece of trailer trash You seemed to have been having a good time with her You weren’t thinking about me obviously”He doesn’t say anything at first Just stares into my blue grey eyes that used to be so full of light so carefree But he dimmed them damn near made them pitch black“You Macy It’s always you”If Landon cannot commit to her than he should let her go but he doesn’t because he is selfish This when telling Cash about Madison“We made out freshman year while we were studying We were sober and wanted to see if there were any feelings there There weren’t” I wait for him to say something anything but he doesn’t So I ask because it’s only fair “Did you sleep with Macy?”Madison proves further how much of a bitch she is when Macy tries to forgive her and she basically says this“He was just there Macy” Madison pulls out of my hold but still faces me “Haven’t you ever been curiousabout Cash?”The daydream about Cash makes my cheeks instantly flush “Yes I have”“And?”“I would never act on it” I say defensively because she needs to know that nothing would ever happen with Cash and I“But you thought about it”Ha ha yes because it’s exactly the same thing Also I noticed they did not come clean to Macy about the other time they made out Madison and Landon were a joke They say they love Cash and Macy but treat them like crap and never put them first I am sorry but this book is not a romance or a love story it is pathetic It is basically a step by step guide on signs to look for in order not to let people emotionally abuse you Also the girl blaming was an added bonus when Landon cheats basically it is because he is grieving and in pain the poor soul so all of forgiven But the girls he cheats with should know better they are inexcusable harlots While I loathe Madison it is not fair to forgive Landon but freeze her out Also the girl who Landon is getting with that Macy witnesses is labelled trailer trash? Really? Grow up and hold your man child boyfriend accountable for his own bloody actions


  8. Annmarie Annmarie says:

    Spoilers so don’t say I didn’t warn you6 friends and 1 dies in a car accident they are all in They were 3 couples 2 twin sisters and their boyfriends and another couple The H cheating POS and the h biggest doormat since Ever in the Forever series from JW The H and the other twin not his girlfriend Macy but his friend Cash’s girlfriend are making out and ripping each other’s clothes off in a closet at prom and get caught by all of them The h Macy forgives him and for the next 3 years at college he fucks around with all girls at parties but he says doesn’t actually have actual sex but fingers them and kisses them and this is RiGHT IN FRONT OF MACY She sees him do it She forgives him over and over He is feeling guilty and so is the whore sister who still hangs with him She ducks around with anything that moves and is an addict now too They finally get clean and it’s a HEA How the hell does this shit happen?? He finally realizes what he’s been doing and everyone is just supposed to forgive him? Um see over there down the street that is where you can go with that Bullshit And the sister?? Omg Cash the boyfriend still wants her WHY???? So many stupid people here and the 2 people who got stepped all over should have gotten together They had a better chance than the MCs I hated Landon the whole book What a total asshole and he even new it For Pete’s sake he was fingering a girl in front of her at a party Never ever would he get a second chance ever How could you trust him? At the end he’s sober and they have a baby but aren’t married but live together and they are putting off marriage until after the NFL draft Yup I just could not get past the sister who he never stopped talking to and the other girls he messed around with Scumbag and a doormat


  9. Brina (Brina and the Books) Brina (Brina and the Books) says:

    1 StarDNF at 57% I can't believe I even got this farSPOILERS AHEADI haven't read a bad book in a while so I guess it was long overdueThis book was so not what I expected It was simply a non stop pity and drug fest Seriously It really really annoyed me And all those sexy scenes Meeehhhh Too early and too manyAnd again all this self pity from the main male character Ugh view spoilerAnd the way he treated his girlfriend? He almost cheated on her with her twin sister for goodness sake Plus he made out and fondled with other girls at parties she was at too Why would she even stay with a piece of sht like him? She would always go back to him and forgive him Don't you have any dignity? Go and let him wail in his self pity go and live your own life because his actions will only drag you down too hide spoiler


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Surviving Regret ❮Epub❯ ➞ Surviving Regret Author Megan Smith – Capitalsoftworks.co.uk One devastating night leaves friendships and relationships irrevocably changed Landon Hayes an all star wide receiver is spiraling out of control after one shattering night that altered everything for One devastating night leaves friendships and relationships irrevocably changed Landon Hayes an all star wide receiver is spiraling out of control after one shattering night that altered everything for him He has one shining star left in his life but he knows he doesn’t deserve it Macy Thomas a college sweetheart trying to find her way is holding on to the boy who stole her heart She’s stuck on the sidelines watching as he throws his life away though The guilt is pulling him into the blackness threatening to take her and everything he has going for him along with it When the heartbreaking reality sets in can Macy still be Landon’s guiding light or is the past too cloudy to help them find their way back to each other This was previously released as Forever Light in October Surviving Regret has a new cover has been fully reedited from cover to cover and over words have been added.

9 thoughts on “Surviving Regret

  1. Leo (Queen of the Rants and Spoilers) Leo (Queen of the Rants and Spoilers) says:

    DNF 10%The hero is a cheater and the heroine's sister is a disgusting bitch who tried to sleep with her sister's boyfriend The heroine is a doormat who forgave the hero I don't give a crap if the 5 friends are coping with loss or the piece of shit hero feels guilty and wants to forget and the best fucking way to forget is to tried to fuck your girlfriend's sister If they weren't interrupted by the friend they would've slept together

  2. ❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books ❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books says:

    ༺Complimentary Copy༺ Provided by the authorMegan Smith exchange for an honest reviewThank you TITLE Surviving Regret AUTHOR Megan Smith GENRE CONTEMPORARY ROMANCE CHAPTERS RELEASE DATE August 25th 2016MY RATING 5 STARS SURVIVING REGRET This is spoken in 'Dual Perspectives' Macy and Landon This kicks starts us off in the year 2010 December told in Macy's words This story mainly focuses on 'Bad Boy' Landon Hayes an all star wide receiver and his long term girlfriend Macy ThomasHigh School Sweethearts these two were like Barbie and Ken during their High School years popular good looking life at their feet ready to be lived With a tight group of friends and Macy's twin sister Madison they were all excited to be going to the same College Madison Cash datingLandon Macy datingAlexa and Steven dating After riding an adrenaline high through winning their football game then off to celebrate the end of school by travelling to Steven's parents house in Cannon Beach Madison and Landon start toking up getting high off their faces and goofing around in the back of the car one bad decision and like a domino effect it all comes crumbling down around their ears That one night destroyed our lives forever and now we’re forever dark Things from this point forward are never the same for any of themAll their lives have been irrevocably altered and utterly ruined consecutively Madison and Landon are spiralling out of control friendships are severed drugs sex alcohol become their numbing device The only way I could survive day to day was to smoketo drink the sounds of that night awayIs Macy going to be strong enough to pull them through this dark tunnel they are all spiralling down? My shining star you're always there shining the brightest out of all the millions of stars in the skyEven when the clouds roll in threatening to dull your lightyou're still the brightest of them all You're always letting me know thatyou are there no matter how dark it gets LANDONI am so glad I took a chance on this book and this author as I've not read anything by her previously and it definitely won't be my last once they were all headed off to College it started picking up for me and hitting me right in the feels the angst the heartbreak the emotional pull on my heartstrings was astronomical The layout reads like a diary format month to month year by year which is unusual but I found I enjoyed it as it seemed to flow well for the story A few times throughout I got leaky eye syndrome this author just pulled out those feels that are normally buried deep heartbreakingly raw Loved it

  3. Kim Kim says:

    I do not like to leave a bad rating without saying why so here goes I am a firm believer in the old saying Fool me once shame on you Fool me twice shame on me Apparently the characters in this book have never heard of that and heard that kicking a dog when it's down over and over and over again is a great thing to do Why do authors think readers enjoy weak doormat heroines? Why??????In all fairness this is a very young adult book and I only read it because I was intrigued about what the big regret was My regret is even finishing it Not for me and I would not suggest letting any impressionable young women read it either

  4. Tracy *To the point Reviews* Tracy *To the point Reviews* says:

    OKDon't know what to say about this book really So I'll blurt out the obvious Heroine was a doormate And despite the fucked up situation their group of friends went through the hero was a complete doucheYou see had we gotten to know him better Had he been likeable before the accident Had we perhaps seen some redeeming ualities in him then maybe I would have accepted that the heroine took him back But since none of the above took place I could not EVER forgive a guy who was about to screw my twin sister Then who goes on to mess about with other woman for three yearsThere just wasn't enough grovelling and enough reason for him to have treated her so damn bad

  5. Cc Cc says:

    220 re readA friend of mine asked me to re read this bc she said it was different from her memory so I did And it's different than I remembered too I think the author worked a little of it over bc I got where she was going this time So a solid 3 stars I'm not into NA so even though it has one of my favorite tropes it's still not something I would read again for pleasure Original reviewI think I understand where the author was trying to go with this one but it just didn't work IMO Just made the heroine look weak

  6. EliseSReads EliseSReads says:

    Not a review of the book just a reminder to myself that this book has a cheating hero Do not read this

  7. Veronica WordsAreMyDrinkOfChoice Veronica WordsAreMyDrinkOfChoice says:

    I am not a fan of authors who basically justify abuse due to tragedy or of heroine’s who let men treat them horrifically have no love life of their own and just wait patiently for the asshole to come back to them This was just plain atrocious I am not a fan of books that use the good old blanket excuse of grief that basically enables characters to act like assholes with minimal repercussions The ‘hero’ here is a waste Of space who cheated on the heroine with her own sister Got caught before full sex but would have carried on otherwise I also am not a fan of double standards I think it is unfair of Macy to forgive Landon but not Madison Maybe the accident where Madison and Landon got caught could have been forgiven if they actually cared and learnt their lesson But they didn’t this was proven by a conversation where Landon asked Madison how far she would ah e let him go as if it was a funny and trivial event Then followed by the fact they made out again to see if their were any ‘feelings’ there? Seriously? How selfish are these two? They broke Macy’s heart by cheating they claim to love her but go there again? If they do have feelings what then? They would have had a fling? Or started dating and left Cash and Macy to pick up the pieces? They never redeemed themselves but then Cash and Macy are fools for letting themselves be treated like this However they still deserved better I was hoping they would realise they wanted each other and ride off into the sunset This beautiful scene where Madison and Landon hook up‘me in that broken down house Make me lie on the floor Make me cold Make me anything but alive to feel the painWhen I blinked it was Macy with me and then it just as uickly faded back to Madison I could have stopped right then and nothing would have changed It was just a kiss But what did I want? What did she want?Madison gave me what I was looking for the peace and uiet She’d let me lie on that floor hell she’d be lying right next to me She didn’t ask for anything in return Just let me take what I wanted in the moment to numb meEverything seemed different It wasn’t the normal sweet tasting kiss The high and alcohol was really messing with me I wondered if Madison felt it too She had to of My tongue moved against hers I grunted pushed her small delicate body against the wallShe groaned and pushed down against my leg harder I gripped her ass in my hands and raised her up so her legs were spread Pressing forward my erection dug into her The newness the anticipation all of it sent a jolt through my body a shiver I felt run down my spine One I hadn’t felt in a while We both gasped her hands flew to my chest tugging at my tie and white dress shirt I helped her out my lips never breaking from hers“I have a condom ” I whispered gasping for breathPlease don’t tell me to stopDon’tShe didn’t say a word her body started to shake My hands fumbled to find the condom in my pocket but there wasn’t much hesitation on my part She wasn’t stopping me eitherSome rationality hit me thenFuck Stop Landon Don’t Think of Macy Think of CashMy body wouldn’t listen though I wanted this A way to cope A way to forget for a second I wanted to fuck her I wanted to feel something besides the everyday feeling and I was sure this was the answer’Macy forgives Landon but not Madison‘Madison’s eyes flickered to Cash’s before she looked back to Macy “I know and I’m sorry I know that I hurt you and I hate myself Just tell me what I need to do How can I fix this?”Macy stared at her sister one of her best friends before she said “You can’t You can’t fix anything you’ve done”I slid down the wall I was leaning against brought my knees up to my chest and dropped my head Everything around me fell apart I shut down it was the only wayI’ve lost all controlI couldn’t deal any longerI ripped those gutters off that perfect house I tore the door off the hinges broke the windows and set the grass on fire I ripped every pedal off that beautiful rose leaving it broken and ugly just like the houseShe was right We can’t fix anything we’ve done Macy forgave me after that night as if it never happened In reality she forgave me before it even happened That’s just Macy though She wasn’t ready to lose the only piece of us we had left I should have ended things right then and there between us but I couldn’t I’m a selfish asshole Deep down inside I need that girl than I need my last breath’“Did you sleep with Madison?” Macy asked as we sat on her bed the next day after the disaster that prom was“No I didn’t have sex with Madison Alexa walked in before that happened” I answered honestly“Would you have if Alexa didn’t walk in?” She said through a cryI don’t want to hurt her any than I already had but I can’t lie to her either Instead of answering her I just nodded my headMacy gasped before a strangled cry escaped her “Why Landon? Why are you running to Madison instead of me? Why?” she criedI leaned forward and rested my elbows on my knees “You’ll never understand Macy”This beautiful discussion about what happenedMadison hands me the joint back that we are smoking I inhale and ask Madison something I’ve always wanted to know “Would you have let me?”“Let you fuck me?”“Jesus” I laugh Madison is always so blunt about things I love that she keeps it real and doesn’t try to add the fluff all the time “You’re so fucking crass”“So”Madison shrugs clearly avoiding my uestion By the way she’s staring at her hands she doesn’t want to answer it or she’s thinking about something else entirely“Answer it”“Answer what?”I roll my eyes “Stop avoiding the uestion” I need the answer I stone my expression so she knows I’m serious “Would you have let me?”Madison thinks for a second and I’m curious what she’s going to say next It could be anything knowing her “I probably would have let you stick it in” I shake my head she’s fucking kidding around “But then I would have stopped you”“Oh man” my head falls back against the wall with a thud as I laugh “that would have totally sucked for me”I wonder what would happen if I did have sex with Madison We’ve had so many opportunities that had we really wanted to we could haveI’m not gonna lie I have thought about it She’s so different than Macy that I wonderYeah they seem real remorseful and we are meant to believe he loves MacyBut don’t worry because he is actually dedicated to Macy really‘I would have done just that too I would have taken anything she would have given me that night It’s what I did back then Madison is one of the very few people I trust completely She understands me on an emotional level that I don’t let others see She knows me almost as much as Macy does The only difference is that Macy gets the physical side People may see me around campus and at parties with other girls but they don’t know what happens between them and me Only I know Yeah I’ve kissed other girls I’ve felt them up I’ve stuck my hands down some of their panties but that’s all that has happened The second I get close to going further Macy flashes into my mind and it’s like a bucket of cold water has been thrown on me And whether I want to admit it or not Macy has my heart wrapped around every possible side of her so much so that no one will ever be able to separate us’There is ‘I let that sink in for a few moments She doesn’t put her emotions into it She doesn’t feel it She doesn’t let it She’s just having a good time Is that how Landon thinks? I know he’s messing around with Madison even if he says that he’s not I know they’re still friends and they hang out a lot I’ve even seen him countless times over the years flirting with other girls at parties while we were “taking a break” I’ve watched him tease girls when he doesn’t know I’m in the same room as him Hell I’ve seen him kiss a girl or two right in front of meDoes he leave his feelings out of it like Heather does? Does he numb himself with them? I know he doesn’t care about them He sees right through them I see it in his eyes The only time he’s not looking through someone is when he’s with Madison and me My stomach turns My sister It makes me sick to think that he can find comfort in her He finds comfort in me too and he tells me it’s only ever me he feels but why can’t I be enough? Why can’t he just see me?FuckWhy am I still with him? Why can’t I be strong enough to walk away? Hell why can’t I turn my feelings off and just live my life the way he is?’‘Landon has some girl pushed up against the wall His hands are on her thighs under her skirtLandon must feel my gaze burning into the back of his head because he turns and his eyes land on me I let the anger take over I replace it with the heartache he is causing He’s cut me deep so deep once again’Then After she runs off in pain‘He tries to look innocent “I wasn’t doing anything”I fold my arms across my chest and laugh dryly “Yeah it didn’t look like you were doing anything Did you feel how wet she was? How wet you made her from just giving her the time of day?”I’m livid He’s a fucking idiot if he thinks he can tell me he wasn’t doing anything“Yeah she was wet So what? Does it hurt you to know I made her wet?”I am sorry he may be grieving and thinks he cannot be with Macy because he doesn’t deserve happiness But what he is doing is hurting and punishing Macy too if he really loved her he wouldn’t be with other girls and he sure as hell would not let her see itThis is just laughable‘I push Landon’s arm “You can’t do this after you just had your fucking hand up that bitch’s skirt Landon” I see my words burning him as they sink in I’ve never told him no when it came to anything sexual before “If you want some go back to that piece of trailer trash You seemed to have been having a good time with her You weren’t thinking about me obviously”He doesn’t say anything at first Just stares into my blue grey eyes that used to be so full of light so carefree But he dimmed them damn near made them pitch black“You Macy It’s always you”If Landon cannot commit to her than he should let her go but he doesn’t because he is selfish This when telling Cash about Madison“We made out freshman year while we were studying We were sober and wanted to see if there were any feelings there There weren’t” I wait for him to say something anything but he doesn’t So I ask because it’s only fair “Did you sleep with Macy?”Madison proves further how much of a bitch she is when Macy tries to forgive her and she basically says this“He was just there Macy” Madison pulls out of my hold but still faces me “Haven’t you ever been curiousabout Cash?”The daydream about Cash makes my cheeks instantly flush “Yes I have”“And?”“I would never act on it” I say defensively because she needs to know that nothing would ever happen with Cash and I“But you thought about it”Ha ha yes because it’s exactly the same thing Also I noticed they did not come clean to Macy about the other time they made out Madison and Landon were a joke They say they love Cash and Macy but treat them like crap and never put them first I am sorry but this book is not a romance or a love story it is pathetic It is basically a step by step guide on signs to look for in order not to let people emotionally abuse you Also the girl blaming was an added bonus when Landon cheats basically it is because he is grieving and in pain the poor soul so all of forgiven But the girls he cheats with should know better they are inexcusable harlots While I loathe Madison it is not fair to forgive Landon but freeze her out Also the girl who Landon is getting with that Macy witnesses is labelled trailer trash? Really? Grow up and hold your man child boyfriend accountable for his own bloody actions

  8. Annmarie Annmarie says:

    Spoilers so don’t say I didn’t warn you6 friends and 1 dies in a car accident they are all in They were 3 couples 2 twin sisters and their boyfriends and another couple The H cheating POS and the h biggest doormat since Ever in the Forever series from JW The H and the other twin not his girlfriend Macy but his friend Cash’s girlfriend are making out and ripping each other’s clothes off in a closet at prom and get caught by all of them The h Macy forgives him and for the next 3 years at college he fucks around with all girls at parties but he says doesn’t actually have actual sex but fingers them and kisses them and this is RiGHT IN FRONT OF MACY She sees him do it She forgives him over and over He is feeling guilty and so is the whore sister who still hangs with him She ducks around with anything that moves and is an addict now too They finally get clean and it’s a HEA How the hell does this shit happen?? He finally realizes what he’s been doing and everyone is just supposed to forgive him? Um see over there down the street that is where you can go with that Bullshit And the sister?? Omg Cash the boyfriend still wants her WHY???? So many stupid people here and the 2 people who got stepped all over should have gotten together They had a better chance than the MCs I hated Landon the whole book What a total asshole and he even new it For Pete’s sake he was fingering a girl in front of her at a party Never ever would he get a second chance ever How could you trust him? At the end he’s sober and they have a baby but aren’t married but live together and they are putting off marriage until after the NFL draft Yup I just could not get past the sister who he never stopped talking to and the other girls he messed around with Scumbag and a doormat

  9. Brina (Brina and the Books) Brina (Brina and the Books) says:

    1 StarDNF at 57% I can't believe I even got this farSPOILERS AHEADI haven't read a bad book in a while so I guess it was long overdueThis book was so not what I expected It was simply a non stop pity and drug fest Seriously It really really annoyed me And all those sexy scenes Meeehhhh Too early and too manyAnd again all this self pity from the main male character Ugh view spoilerAnd the way he treated his girlfriend? He almost cheated on her with her twin sister for goodness sake Plus he made out and fondled with other girls at parties she was at too Why would she even stay with a piece of sht like him? She would always go back to him and forgive him Don't you have any dignity? Go and let him wail in his self pity go and live your own life because his actions will only drag you down too hide spoiler

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